Update

Oct. 20th, 2011 05:40 pm
miss_invisible: (gws: Jamie listening)
The parents going to a session with Dee seems to have gone well– I'll know more when I see her again on Monday. Thanks to those of who had reassurances on that front, I really appreciate it.

I've been a bit under the weather with a mild cold, and the literal weather here has been awful and dreary, which is a bummer. Also it's getting dark early and I do not like it. HOWEVER, significant cheering up in that I had a phone interview for a job! I should know soon if they want me for an in-person one. Fingers crossed! JUST KIDDING. :[

In other news my focal seizures gave me auditory hallucinations the other night. That was, uh, worrying. I hope it doesn't become a regular thing, it's never happened before. No me gusta.
miss_invisible: (hh: sad alot)
So, obviously that whole updating while I was in Europe thing didn't happen, life was fairly busy. That said, the course went well and I am now certified, and as a bonus my classmates were all awesome. I hope you have all been well while I've been gone.

I'm now on the mildly frantic hunt for a job, which so far is not going great and has been stressing me out far more than the class did. There's been a fair amount of unprompted crying fits and afternoons of total depressive shutdown– it's kiiiiind of a problem. I've managed to get three apps in, but so far no luck. European employers are particularly obnoxious, because they all want EU residents rather than mess with visa paperwork– this is not very helpful when the goal is to move to the EU permanently.

Tdoc Dee thinks I am handling all the pressure and life upheaval very well. I think that is sweet of her, but only true when you compare me to me, not when you compare me to people who can function like normal humans. (I may be a bit frustrated. Just a bit.)
miss_invisible: (gws: pals)
Sorry for the temporary disappearance. I'm doing better now, and my moods have leveled out once again. I seem to be doing better in terms on energy levels as well, though I still have definite limits– I've been out and about running a variety of errands lately, which has left me very exhausted at the end of the day.

I'm now on an every-other week schedule with my tdoc Dee! Don't get me wrong, I like my tdoc, she's great, but it's a really great feeling of tangible progress to be able to step back the number of visits. She and I seem to be in agreement that I've hit a breakthrough point where I'm now able to, y'know, function like a normal person a good percentage of the time. I'm working part time, I'm doing various projects of my own, I'm not feeling like hell. It's a refreshing change. Hopefully the upward trend continues, though my progress seems to move in steps rather than a continuous curve.

My therapy homework for next time is to give some thought to when my anxiety started. What do you think, should I just print out that entry? Today she posited that, in the chicken-or-egg question of anxiety & depression, in my case the anxiety is the root of the rest of my problems. I found this interesting, since I generally consider them and their co-morbidity in more of a physiological light; anyone know of any research out there that suggests this kind of causal relation? I'm curious, and I know there's a lot of conflicting views and a lot we don't know about mental illness.

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