(found your post through disabledfeminists.com)

Not sure what kind of feedback you want, but it seems like we've had similar experiences. Years of untreated mental illness and feeling like I had to get by alone. The other trouble I had was endless rationalization - e.g. "it's not bad enough to be a problem," "self-diagnosis is unreliable, suck it up, nothing's wrong".

Hope you're hanging in there.